A twisted rapist who began touching his granddaughter when she was a five-year-old gave her a brutal home abortion while she was pinned down after he impregnated her aged 12.
For years, Charlotte Wade, now 22, lived in fear of her step-grandfather Raymond Hodges, now 73, who inflicted horrific sexual abuse, which he filmed, upon her.
His sadistic acts, including making her touch him while her parents were asleep and forcing her hand on a scalding kettle, saw him thrown behind bars in 2017.
Now, after years of suffering in silence, Charlotte, from Barry, Vale of Glamorgan, has decided to open up about her traumatic childhood.
Charlotte Wade (left aged 22 and right aged 6) has spoken out about the sexual abuse her twisted grandfather inflicted on her as a child
Speaking of the first time he forced herself on her when she was seven, Charlotte said: ‘The pain was unbearable. He told me this is what grown ups did.
‘Afterwards, he bought me sweets from the shop as if nothing had happened. I was trapped.
‘A year later, he began to film the sexual assaults. At first, I refused, but he kicked me in the stomach and then raped me anyway.
‘I was powerless. The next time I refused, he forced my hand onto a scalding kettle.’
Hodges, 73, was jailed for 25 years and ordered to sign the sex offenders’ register
Hodges started abusing Charlotte when she was only five when he used to babysit her.
She said: ‘I loved Raymond like he was my real grandad. He always brought me chocolate when he visited.
‘But that day, Raymond was different and asked me if I knew how to kiss like a grown up.
‘When I said no, he kissed me on the lips. Afterwards, he told me it was our secret.
‘And he’d do it every time we were alone.’
Hodges, who moved closer the his grandchildren in 2003, increased the level of the now-weekly abuse and threatened to hurt Charlotte’s brothers if she spoke of his evil sexual acts.
In 2009 when Charlotte was 12, she missed two periods.
She said: ‘Grandad was abusing me so regularly that he noticed and forced me to take a pregnancy test.
‘He wouldn’t let me see the results and nothing was mentioned for a few weeks.’
Charlotte, pictured aged eight, was forced to have sex with Hodges aged seven and her made her touch him while her parents were asleep and forced her hand on a scalding kettle
She revealed that one day Hodges performed an excruciatingly painful DIY abortion while one of his friends held her against the ground.
Charlotte said: ‘I felt like I was going to die. Afterwards he told me that I wouldn’t be pregnant anymore, then he left me bleeding on the floor. I cleaned myself up but I was in agony for the next few days.’
When she was 14, Hodges fell out with her Charlotte’s mother and so she did not see him as often, but she was left with deep psychological scars.
She said: ‘Even after Granddad left, I never felt safe. I suffered terrible flashbacks and self-harmed. And I tried to end my life several times.
‘I realised that Granddad needed to be punished for what he’d done to me. So in November 2016, I reported him to the police. A week later, he was arrested and charged.’
In July 2017, he appeared at Cardiff Crown Court charged with 24 offences against Charlotte.
When she was 14, Hodges fell out with her Charlotte’s (pictured aged 12) mother and so she did not see him as often, but she was left with deep psychological scars
Hodges pleaded guilty to one count of rape of a female child under the age of 13, one count of sexual assault of a female under the age of 13, assault of a female child under the age of 13, and causing or inciting a female child under 13 to engage in sexual activity.
He denied the rest of the charges, forcing Charlotte to give evidence, but a two-week trial, Hodges was found guilty on all the remaining 20 charges.
Judge Philip Harris-Jenkins said Hodges had shown no remorse for what he called ‘the most depraved and horrific campaign of sexual abuse’.
He jailed Hodges for 25 years and ordered him to sign the sex offenders’ register for life.
Charlotte says: ‘When the police told me, I fell to the floor sobbing. Speaking out has helped me move forward with my life – and I want to urge others to do the same.
‘My sick granddad may have deprived me of a happy childhood, but I refuse to let him ruin my future.’
She added: ‘I’m slowing piecing my life back together. And it helps to know that he’s rotting behind bars – and that my evidence helped to put him there.’